What Inspired 'The Restless Virgo'

The Restless Virgo was based on my personal experience. A unique journey with a virgo that left me enriched as well as perplexed.

I didn't know much about Virgos. I don't read too much into people's zodiacs or behavioral patterns. Patterns have a generic appeal. But every individual is unique. That's why we are called individuals.

I call her Virgo. It is my comfort way of addressing her. It's hard for me to address her by the name. She is a September Virgo [Are they exceptionally hot ;) ]

Ever felt drawn to someone ?

Have you ever felt drawn to someone and could never explain what it was ? I did. Instant liking. Instant trust. I just felt like she was home to me. The more I knew about her, the more it felt valid. It felt like she was the one.

Extreme pull. I couldn't stay without talking to her or seeing her. I wanted to drop everything to go and be with her. It was like this or nothing. Our thoughts aligned, interests matched, eyes crossed.

She had to come in my path. To punish, to guide, to betray or to teach. I don't know which one.

I wrote this only for her to understand what I went through. But I was scared to share it with her directly. I published it, so she can read if she wanted to.

She blocked me everywhere. Never wanted me to contact her again. I don't know why. What did I say so wrong that I didn't matter anymore ?

But at times I am compelled. I am worried about how she is doing. I feel sorry for how things ended. I needed to be more emotionally mature. I needed to take a step back, analyze and resolve. Instead I hurried. The fear of losing her. I didn't want to lose her.

Years of experience didn't help me handle this better. Fear, pressure, confusion... many reasons that made me take wrong judgements of the situation.

I wanted her to hear me out just once. Just one time. I wanted her to see me just once. I will do anything for it.

She may never come back. But someday, she will understand...